From Breakdown to Breakthrough
My name is Lisbeth. I am a creator. I created a coaching business to help nurses own their awesome and to better understand that the need for their own healing is as important as helping others.
I have been a nurse for eighteen years and have had my business for three. The journey since hanging my Healthy Nurse by Design shingle has been bumpy to put it mildly.
It is reminiscent of the baptism by fire that I experienced as a new nurse. Learning by trial and error. Seeing what sticks. Being scared as hell but doing it anyway. Pushing myself way outside of my comfort zone. But all of my actions paid off, because I have launched my first online program for nurses. It’s not like anything else I’ve seen.
My online program is called Nurse Boss Soul School. It’s like camp for the nurse soul, all in the privacy of your own home. A safe place to explore what makes you tick. A place to release the limiting beliefs that you acquired as a young child. A place that expects you to put the needs of your whole healing (body-mind-spirit) before any one else, without guilt. A place to learn energy tools to keep your energy healthy and protected from toxic disruptions. A place to laugh and let your hair down. A tribe of amazing sisters that have your back.
Healthy Nurse by Design was born out of my own dissatisfaction with life and work. I have always felt life is too short to simply exist. Life is meant to be lived to the max, in a way that fulfills one’s fullest potential.
I left clinical nursing five years ago because I was not living into my full potential. I felt stuck, trapped, and like I couldn’t breathe. I couldn’t express my gifts, or my creativity. As a result I was sad, stuck in a fear and lack mentality, and totally discouraged. I was missing something, but I couldn’t quite put my finger on it.
My inner discord began my sojourn to discover what it was that was missing from my life. That journey led me to yoga school, nutrition school, business school for entrepreneurs, stress management schooling, and schooling for energy healing. I was completely transformed through this process. Whenever I experience transformation, I have to figure out a way to share it with the world.
I was evolving into a more aware, mindful, grateful, creative, excited, empowered human, and felt so inspired to help others become the best version of their best selves. I became a believer of abundance and magic and a magnet for all things healing.
My feel good flow stopped dead in it’s tracks about two weeks ago. It all started when life handed me more overwhelming circumstances that I could possibly handle. All in a very short amount of time.
One thing led to another and I started to cave in. I started to wilt inside, all while trying to appear on the outside that everything was “ok.” My feelings were reminiscent of me five years ago….. trapped, stuck and like I couldn’t breathe.
The only difference this time was that I had the tools to cope. The kicker is, I was so deep into the struggle that I stopped practicing all of the tools that helped me heal previously.
Luckily, I was able to remember that suffering comes from trying to be somewhere other than where we are. Instead of trying to run or stuff my anxiety, overwhelm, stress, and extreme fatigue I became an observer to my massive struggle.
I noticed that I really had some serious discomfort about my feelings of discomfort and heavy energy. As soon as this awareness hit me and I realized that I was doing exactly what I teach people not to do, trying to change what is and just being with your feelings as a nonjudgmental observer, my energy shifted and my divine inner wisdom took over!!!
That is when the breakthrough came. I sat with the heaviness. I acknowledged my being from every angle without putting a label on it of sucking or being terrible.
I looked for the lesson. The opportunity. I prayed. I meditated. I offered gratitude for every little thing in my life, even the heavy energy. I asked for guidance, I reached out for help. I shared my struggle with my friends.
In that moment, my energy shifted. I could breathe. I could smile. I could be ok with what is without trying to change it. I was no longer grasping so tightly. I was more open. I was practicing what I preach.
Back to Nurse Boss Soul School……This breakdown happened a week after lesson three was released. Guess what the lesson was about? Your feelings are messengers from your soul!
It was all about how your feelings come up for a reason. They are nudges from your soul to pay closer attention. They are a prompt for you to lean in, step back, reflect, evaluate, and love yourself up. I was living the lesson that I was teaching others. Talk about powerful.
They say, you teach the lesson that you need to learn the most or when the student is ready, the teacher will appear.
I was stuck in fear mode and since like attracts like I was attracting boatloads of fear and lack on my path.
What I learned from this lesson is that it is ok to really feel our feelings, even the ones we deem awful. When we acknowledge our feelings for what they are without trying to change them, the healing comes rushing in.
Literally, the day after my energy shifted, I could feel and see so much joy, abundance, and opportunity where just days before I saw and felt fear, struggle, and missed opportunities.
What are you attaching to in your life that could use some release or healing? Feel the feelings and trust that the next step will be revealed to you. Although it is hard to trust and wait, I promise it pays off big time!
I am sending you loads of healing and patience in looking for the lessons that life is hoping to share with you today.